Dreaming in the Wind

The Baby’s Lair
This is the nursery we have put together so far for our first child. I like to stand in it and close my eyes. I imagine what it will be like to have my son laying in the crib or cradled in my arms as I stare out the window – into the world. But how much more awesome it will be when I no longer have to imagine. Soon enough our baby will be here and I will get to actually physically stand there with him in my arms. What a bonding experience that will be! I can barely describe how I feel in anticipation, so I know that in that moment when I finally have him in my arms, I will be completely and utterly speechless.

We’re still working on the room but it’s also come a long way from what it was. I’m incredibly grateful for my mother and father in law. They had the walls painted, new carpet installed and the ceiling replaced. I love them so much and seeing how excited they are to be grandparents makes me happy. That’s what I want to focus on in this post – Excitement.

In my last post I discussed my fears as I begin this new journey called Fatherhood – but to leave it there would be incomplete. I am extremely excited as well.  It almost seems like a paradox – How can I be excited for something I fear? How can I fear something that excites me? I don’t know, it’s a mystery! But that is how I feel.

A Beautiful Mystery
The miracle of life is a powerfully wonderful thing! It is mysterious, connective, deep and life altering – It is exactly what it is, miraculous! Soon my wife and I will be releasing a new creation into the world. He is currently being knit together in my wives womb. My mind can’t comprehend this joy that is growing in her. It is a part of me and it is a part of her – yet it is separate from us both. My imagination swirls with all the combinations of attributes the baby could take on from either of us (Mel and I.) Will he have curly hair? Brown eyes or blue? What will his laugh sound like? Will he be smart? Will he be strong? Will he grow up to be like me? I am so excited to discover the jewels of the future.

A World of Adventure
What I anticipate the most is the universe of creativity that is in store for my son. Once he gets old enough I fully intend to lead him into a world of make-believe and pretend. The couch will become a pirate ship, the kitchen table becomes a medieval castle and the backyard becomes a mystic forest. We will get into sword fights with swashbucklers, launch torpedoes at a 100ft. squid and search for treasure deep within the caves of the mystic forest.
I have so much planned for him – so many adventures for him in store and at the same time I’m confident he will have many adventures for me. So bring it on world! I’m ready to be the best dad I can be!